A Year in Texas

It’s been a year in the States now and I think I have come full circle.It has been a year full of tumultous ups and downs. I still miss Singapore a lot. However, Life has made some moving changes here in the States. I am now vey much vocal than before. My mind’s open up to a harsher culture where instincts are intertwine with survival and culture.
I enjoy the vast land of Texas and the ability to just jump into my Beetle and drive out of the city into the hill country. I’ve travelled to the hill country and to the little towns around Texas. This year has made me stronger, and more affirmed of myself. I never regretted the decision to migrate to the States, and a happy thought arose when I think of myself as a tourist when I go home to Singapore for my holidays. Finally, the ability to be a tourist in my own country. I will see Singapore in a different light, a different sound. 

It has been a tough year to say the least, sweetened by a first love and a discovery of a new romance that didn’t evolve and grow. The American culture has cultured me extensively but it has also brought me closer to my Asian roots. I sometimes wonder what it could have been had I not make this decision for this out-of-SG experience in the US. I probably would have gone on my monotonous living and working in Singapore and never knowing what I have missed. Or even knowing that I have missed anything at all.

The irony still lingers. The choice of a continuous monotonous hand-to-mouth dead-working nursing career in Singapore to a rewarding and well-paid nursing career in the US but the sacrifice of my beloved Family and Friends left behind in Singapore. The choice of a newly found independant lifestyle in the US to a lifestyle that I can never afford in Singapore. The lonliness of living alone in the US to the close proximity of strong bonding and establishment of my Family and Friends in Singapore. It is tough but sacrifices made are sacrifices done and rewarded with time. Another year and another full circle.

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